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Seeking counsel
I am currently at a crossroad in my life, and I could use some Godly advice as to what I should do. To start off, I'll tell you where I am at now, then get into a decision I have to make, and quickly.
I moved to where I am now a little over 3 years ago to get away from a certain family member, a family member whom I have spent much of my adult life with and that has held me back from what God had planned for me. Shortly after moving here, that family member decided to move to Hawaii, and I along with my brother was invited to go with them. I prayed about it, and sought counsel from a fellow brother in Christ. I was informed that God wanted to seperate me from my family, and that He wanted me to stay where I am. So, I did. Shortly after that, I got the best paying, best benefit local driving job I have ever gotten. Shortly after that, I moved into a place that the rent is very affordable, and within a month, signed a contract to owner finance the house and lot. It has been a little over 2 1/2 years since this has happened. Last year, I was finally able to get all the bad teeth in my mouth pulled, and got new teeth in. I have finally been able to actually smile for the first time in my adult life. All this because I chose to obey God and stayed when He told me to. I give God all the credit for this, for I know He is the One who blessed me with this.
Now for the situation;
Years ago, I worked for a guy in New Braunfels Tx. He was the best boss I have ever had, even better than the guys I am currently with. I worked for him twice before, and he wants me to return to driving for him, and quite badly. Since I like driving for him so much, I also have a strong desire to go back to driving for him. But here is the problem (and it is worldly); He cannot afford to pay me what I'm getting paid now. He has no benefits, hense health insurance, 401K, life insurance, personal time days, and paid holidays, all of which I have now. Just in case you are wondering why I quit in the past, well, the first time was boredom. I was bored with my life and wanted a change. The second time it was the desire to feel wanted. I had a couple of friends in Houston that got real excited when they saw me, and I wanted that all the time. So, I quit and moved there in hopes of getting that feeling all the time. Ended up being the worst move I ever did, as I lost my sweet boy (in my profile picture) because of that move. Anyways, back to the point. This guy is in desperate need of a driver, and wants me to return. Since I like driving for him, and consider him a great friend, I want to. It would feel so good to be driving for someone who takes better care of the equipment, and even make sure the a/c works in the trucks for the driver's comfort. (This company only keeps the trucks going, not much more. If the a/c gets fixed in one of the trucks, someone, whom I suspect is the dispatcher due to his attitude, drains the freon.)
Ok, worldly speaking, it is most logical to stay where I am. The pay is much better, and have much better benefits. I am buying my own house, which in all honesty feels great. The only drawback is that I do not like the town in which I live, whereas I love the town in which he is in. I am single, with only dogs to take care of, so I do not "need" much to survive, although more is always nice.
The other day I started to put in a notice to quit so I can move in a couple of weeks. I felt, what I thought at the time, was conviction not to do it. So, I didn't. I instead, passed word to my old boss about it. I do not want to tell him over the phone this type of news, it's just too hard for me. I would much rather tell him face to face. This way I could see the expression on his face, and look into his eyes. But since I am unable to, I passed the message to his wife, asking her to tell him for me, and why I did not call him to tell him. Honestly, she was devestated, because she knows the news will disappoint him so much. Believe me, I feel very bad about this whole thing.
But the "problem" is this; I'm not too sure if what I felt was conviction from the Holy Spirit, or fear of change. I've been here for the longest I have ever been anywhere at one time. I do know this, for me, the fear of change will bring the same "feeling" as a conviction. If I move, I need to save what money I have to be able to get a place with, as I refuse to move in with someone. But if I stay, then there is things I need to replace, and fix, which I have been putting off saving the money to get my own place there.
I apologize for this question being so long, but to be able to give some true advice, you need to know the full situation. I have to admit, I know a part of me will be more content going there and driving for him again, but at the same time, I know I will miss the larger paychecks, the PTOs, paid holidays, and even buying my own place. (Not saying I cannot come across the same opportunity there as I did here, if it is His will, He will provide there as He did here.) So, what are your thoughts?
I moved to where I am now a little over 3 years ago to get away from a certain family member, a family member whom I have spent much of my adult life with and that has held me back from what God had planned for me. Shortly after moving here, that family member decided to move to Hawaii, and I along with my brother was invited to go with them. I prayed about it, and sought counsel from a fellow brother in Christ. I was informed that God wanted to seperate me from my family, and that He wanted me to stay where I am. So, I did. Shortly after that, I got the best paying, best benefit local driving job I have ever gotten. Shortly after that, I moved into a place that the rent is very affordable, and within a month, signed a contract to owner finance the house and lot. It has been a little over 2 1/2 years since this has happened. Last year, I was finally able to get all the bad teeth in my mouth pulled, and got new teeth in. I have finally been able to actually smile for the first time in my adult life. All this because I chose to obey God and stayed when He told me to. I give God all the credit for this, for I know He is the One who blessed me with this.
Now for the situation;
Years ago, I worked for a guy in New Braunfels Tx. He was the best boss I have ever had, even better than the guys I am currently with. I worked for him twice before, and he wants me to return to driving for him, and quite badly. Since I like driving for him so much, I also have a strong desire to go back to driving for him. But here is the problem (and it is worldly); He cannot afford to pay me what I'm getting paid now. He has no benefits, hense health insurance, 401K, life insurance, personal time days, and paid holidays, all of which I have now. Just in case you are wondering why I quit in the past, well, the first time was boredom. I was bored with my life and wanted a change. The second time it was the desire to feel wanted. I had a couple of friends in Houston that got real excited when they saw me, and I wanted that all the time. So, I quit and moved there in hopes of getting that feeling all the time. Ended up being the worst move I ever did, as I lost my sweet boy (in my profile picture) because of that move. Anyways, back to the point. This guy is in desperate need of a driver, and wants me to return. Since I like driving for him, and consider him a great friend, I want to. It would feel so good to be driving for someone who takes better care of the equipment, and even make sure the a/c works in the trucks for the driver's comfort. (This company only keeps the trucks going, not much more. If the a/c gets fixed in one of the trucks, someone, whom I suspect is the dispatcher due to his attitude, drains the freon.)
Ok, worldly speaking, it is most logical to stay where I am. The pay is much better, and have much better benefits. I am buying my own house, which in all honesty feels great. The only drawback is that I do not like the town in which I live, whereas I love the town in which he is in. I am single, with only dogs to take care of, so I do not "need" much to survive, although more is always nice.
The other day I started to put in a notice to quit so I can move in a couple of weeks. I felt, what I thought at the time, was conviction not to do it. So, I didn't. I instead, passed word to my old boss about it. I do not want to tell him over the phone this type of news, it's just too hard for me. I would much rather tell him face to face. This way I could see the expression on his face, and look into his eyes. But since I am unable to, I passed the message to his wife, asking her to tell him for me, and why I did not call him to tell him. Honestly, she was devestated, because she knows the news will disappoint him so much. Believe me, I feel very bad about this whole thing.
But the "problem" is this; I'm not too sure if what I felt was conviction from the Holy Spirit, or fear of change. I've been here for the longest I have ever been anywhere at one time. I do know this, for me, the fear of change will bring the same "feeling" as a conviction. If I move, I need to save what money I have to be able to get a place with, as I refuse to move in with someone. But if I stay, then there is things I need to replace, and fix, which I have been putting off saving the money to get my own place there.
I apologize for this question being so long, but to be able to give some true advice, you need to know the full situation. I have to admit, I know a part of me will be more content going there and driving for him again, but at the same time, I know I will miss the larger paychecks, the PTOs, paid holidays, and even buying my own place. (Not saying I cannot come across the same opportunity there as I did here, if it is His will, He will provide there as He did here.) So, what are your thoughts?